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  To the brave and adventurous souls who shared their stories with me in this book, and to the brave and adventurous souls who will read these stories and find inspiration to embrace their own second acts.

  And to my beautiful family whom I love above all else—thank you for your patience and supportthrough every character change of life!

  INTRODUCTION

  It’s 3:00 a.m. and I’m wide awake in a hotel room in Oklahoma City, finishing the final details on the book you are about to read. Why am I in Oklahoma City? I’m asking myself the same question. Technically, I’m location scouting for an upcoming indie project I’m producing. Yes, at my age. I just wrapped the first season of my show Carol’s Second Act the night before and I’m sick as a dog. I had to skip the wrap party to go home and pack, hop on an early flight, and I’ve just spent the day fruitlessly searching for a house to shoot the movie in. We’re less than three weeks out from principal photography and we still don’t have our lead actor. What on earth was I thinking?

  Timing is everything and it just so happens that the opportunity to independently produce a film didn’t come about until now in my sixties. Shouldn’t I be relaxing by a pool, hanging out on a golf course, or sitting in a beachside cabana playing canasta with the gals? (I don’t know what canasta is but I think ladies in their sixties play it.) It’s tempting. But we’ve had this script for at least ten years and it’s now or never—I’m not getting any younger. It’s not time to wind down yet, it’s time to press on. So on top of my other commitments, here I am throwing myself into the deep end once again—care to join me? I’m embarking on my second act.

  All growth comes with a level of pain; I’m feeling it and I’m sure you’ve felt it at times, too. But somewhere down in the depths of my soul, I must enjoy this. There’s a certain excitement in the terror of the unknown. It’s kind of what actors thrive on. And so it is with me. I don’t feel like I know what I’m doing at this juncture but I’m certainly willing to learn. I’m fortunate to have a team of very talented and dedicated young people around me who somehow just get things done. My challenge is to keep my focus in the right place—not on the result, but on each step in front of me.

  The good news: I know I’m not alone in this madness of second act growing pains. There are countless people in the world right now finding drive, purpose, and passionately reinventing themselves in all kinds of beautiful ways. I’ve found tremendous inspiration from the people you are about to meet in this book. Their strength, commitment, and willingness to step out in faith and desperation—all inspire me in ways I was not expecting when I started this project. I mean, I thought a book about second acts would be a good idea at first and I wanted to inspire others. I just had no idea how much I would be personally impacted through this process.

  You see, this book is a by-product of my own personal transition in life. You’ll read more about my story in the first few chapters, but as I was setting out on my own second act journey, I wondered about the stories of others and what made them decide to leap into the unchartered territory of reinvention. I thought about all the misconceptions that come with getting older and the questions I had in my own heart—is it too late? Am I too old? Am I too crazy? (Don’t answer that.) But beyond the questions in my heart, there were dreams. Dreams and desires I had placed on hold because of whatever pressing thing in the moment that was taking my time—motherhood and family, my career, life. I couldn’t let go of those things that were sitting on the sidelines of my heart, I had to bring them to pass. And that is what a second act is all about.

  Second acts can be by choice: a new career, an artistic expression, a mentoring opportunity; or they can be due to a change in circumstance: a divorce, the death of a loved one, a layoff, or the empty nest. Second acts can be about self-fulfillment and they can be about service to others. Your second act is your call. It’s personal to you. It’s your path and your journey.

  As I talked to my friends who have already transitioned into their own second acts, and began collecting stories for this project, I realized there is so much to glean from others’ experiences. I have personally found new strength and determination as a result. This is my hope for you, too. As you read, don’t let yourself become a passive observer. We do that all too often nowadays. Instead, look for yourself in these stories. Find common hopes, dreams, and fears to connect with. Let the strength you read about in these pages become your strength. Let the creativity and resolve connect with the creativity and resolve in your own heart.

  My greatest desire for this project is to empower you on the next steps of your journey in this life—to find meaning, purpose, hope, and fulfillment on the adventure that awaits you—the adventure that is Your Second Act.

  In the Beginning: My First Act

  “Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all.”

  —Helen Keller

  Bread, booze, and burrata. If anyone would have told me a few years ago that I would be giving up my three most favorite things on the planet (hubs and boys excluded, of course), I would have taken you straight to the nearest psych ward—because that’s just pure craziness.

  But getting old makes you do crazy things… or is it that you’ve finally become sane, and realized what matters most?

  In any case, here I am today, over two years without my gorgeous old fashioned, my caprese salad, or my brioche loaf. Why, you might ask? Well, like with so many other things, I blame it on my kids. I’m sixty-two, and my boys don’t seem anywhere near having children, or even steady girlfriends, yet. It could be a good ten to fifteen years before that happens—if it happens. That would put me firmly in my seventies by the time I get to be somebody’s “Nana.” God forbid I’m a drooling, wrinkled sack of bones propped up in a Rascal, receiving the reluctant but compulsory peck on the cheek from little, frightened grandkids.

  So because my body and mind are in decline, I decided I need to do everything in my power to keep death at arm’s length and keep myself in tip-top shape, even if it means saying good-bye to Gorgonzola, farewell to French toast, and so long to sauvignon blanc!

  Now, no one is guaranteed a single day of life, but assuming I have at least a few years left (God willing) I want to make the most of them.

  But there’s another reason I wanted to make some changes. The glorious years of raising my family are behind me, and during the time I was deep into them, I didn’t have much time for anything else other than acting. Now that the boys have more or less launched, some space has opened up in my life to explore those other interests that were put on hold twenty-some years ago. Now if I could only remember what they were… just kidding.

  I have lived a life beyond my wildest dreams, and I’m so grateful. Life wasn’t handed to me on a silver platter by any stretch. I’ve worked hard, skinned my knees, cried my eyes out, regretted, doubted, and second-guessed myself along the way. Handing everything over to God changed my life. I’ve gone up and down many different paths, and looking back, I see how the seed for my second act was clearly planted in my first act. I think you’ll find the same is true for you, too.

  My first act was, and still is, of course acting, which has been my passion since I can remember. I heard passion described like this: When you do what you love to do at a moderate level, you can
call it a hobby. But when you go all out with it to the point that someone deems you one step short of crazy, that’s passion.

  Throughout the years, I’m sure people looked at my life and thought that I have indeed been one step short of crazy in my pursuit of acting. During my early years in New York, a college roommate visited me in a studio apartment I was renting and I heard that when she went back to Ohio she told everyone, “Patty lives in a shoebox!” She was right. But once you’ve garnered some success in your career, most people find “crazy” to be perfectly acceptable.

  Growing up, I had no encouragement from anyone to pursue acting or to get into the entertainment business. It wasn’t that anyone dismissed me or discouraged me, it’s just that no one in my family had any connection to that world. However, I’ve just naturally been a performer all my life. As early on as elementary school I was making up songs in Sister Delrina’s class and performing them like I was on Broadway—minus my name in lights and the moldy dressing rooms in the basement. And when my older sisters would bring home a new Barbra Streisand album or the cast recording of Oliver! or The Sound of Music, I would immediately memorize the songs and have all my girlfriends in the neighborhood learn them, too, so we could sing for family and friends, or at the very least, belt those tunes out into the universe as we sailed along on a swing set.

  I was also an avid reader, and when I had a book with a particularly compelling story line, I would gather my playmates, assign them roles, and act the whole thing out. In fact, everything in my world was potential material for a performance. I loved pretending, I loved dressing up. I had a vivid imagination that was fueled by having only three channels on the black-and-white TV growing up. And no internet. (I just reread that last sentence and realized I am very old.) When you have virtually no entertainment, you pretty much have to be the entertainment you seek. And so I was in every respect! I was fortunate to be surrounded by a gaggle of girls on my street who loved singing, dancing, reading, drawing, creating, dressing up, and playacting as much as I did.

  As I got older, my love for performing grew even stronger. I was always auditioning for plays and musicals. Strangely enough, when it came time to choose a college and a career, I didn’t immediately decide to major in theater. My mother passed away when I was in the seventh grade, and she was the only one to take notice of my performer’s personality. She signed me up for ballet and acting classes, but she wasn’t there when it came time for me to figure out where to go to college and what to study. And unlike today, there was no tutoring, no SAT prepping, and no college tours. From our neighborhood, everyone pretty much went to the closest state school. My sisters and brother went to Kent State, so it was assumed I would go there, too, no questions asked. But one bad experience there colored my view of the school. When I was in middle school, I went there to visit my oldest sister, Sharon, and she had me watch the Hitchcock thriller The Birds. Pretty scary stuff. We also ate pizza and drank Hawaiian Punch, and the combination of all three of those things made me throw up. I could never look at Kent State the same way again. The only other school I had ever visited was Ohio State. And by “visit,” I mean I had gone there to watch my high school sweetheart at a wrestling match one time. That was better than nothing, so I became an Ohio State Buckeye, and that’s all the thought that went into my higher education.

  I next had to decide on my major. No one ever said, “Gee, Patty, you like to sing and be in plays. Do you think you want to be an actor?” And why would they? My father worked as a sportswriter for the Cleveland Plain Dealer, and had no interest in theater or music. No one I knew had ever had anything to do with any aspect of the entertainment industry. My older sister Alice seemed to be headed for an acting career, winning a summer acting scholarship and studying theater at Kent State. But when my mother died, Alice came home to take care of me and my younger sister, Fran, and her aspirations were set aside. So the only other theatrical event in the family was the yearly roast for the newspaper my dad sang in (badly) and acted in (worse). In fact, journalism was what we knew best, so it was journalism I picked. My dad assumed that after college I would come home, and he would use his connections to get me a job at the local paper or with one of the TV stations. At that point in my life, I had never even been on a plane, so the idea that I would end up in Hollywood was entirely unthinkable.

  But I was deeply unhappy in college and it wasn’t until the middle of my junior year that I realized the depression I had been experiencing since my mother’s death wasn’t just due to her passing or the lack of counseling I received for it. It was also because I wasn’t pursuing my passion. I liked writing but not journalism—I always thought that I was more interesting than the people I had to interview. That’s an actor’s ego right there, folks! But in my own defense, there wasn’t a lot of anything interesting in Columbus in the ’70s. I finally decided I was going to pursue a career in acting, or at the very least, change my major.

  Making the Switch

  It took quite a bit of courage to tell my dad that I wanted to change my major to theater. Think Dorothy approaching the great and powerful Oz. Because both my dad and brother were journalists, and I wasn’t half bad at writing, majoring in it made sense to my dad. It’s just what our family did. So as I prepared my speech in my head, I just knew I was going to get a lot of resistance, and I dreaded the battle. But I dreaded journalism even more. I finally screwed up the courage to tell Dad. Looking back, I’m not sure why I was so trepidatious. Sure, my dad helped me take out the loan for college, but I was the one paying it back, and if I was paying for college myself, it should be my decision, right? I had a good argument in my mind, but still, I guess we all need our parents’ approval. I’ll never forget sitting across from him in our living room one weekend, nervously wishing I had Toto to cling to. My dad was sitting there in his T-shirt and jogging shorts, legs crossed, reading the newspaper. It was quiet for a moment. I finally just said, “Dad, I want to change my major to theater.” He looked up at me, paused for a moment, and said, “That’s fine.” And that was it. No problemo. I realized later that it wasn’t so much that he was “fine” with theater, he just didn’t believe that I would actually pursue it after college. I’m sure he was certain that I would come home, and he would get me a job locally, in journalism, as predicted.

  I wonder how often people don’t pursue their passion because they feel they need to get permission from someone first? How often do we take the road of what’s expected of us even though it’s a road we were never meant to travel?

  Baby Steps to the Elevator

  There’s a scene in the 1991 film What About Bob? where an accomplished psychiatrist played by Richard Dreyfuss is helping Bob, a man riddled with phobias, played by Bill Murray. In his office, the psychiatrist explains to Bob that he doesn’t have to worry about every detail of his life, he only needs to take “baby steps” or set small, reasonable goals, one choice at a time. Bob feels a sense of relief and renewed purpose. He starts with baby steps across the office floor, then baby steps down the hall, then baby steps to the elevator. The doors open, revealing an elevator packed with people. Unfortunately, Bob is claustrophobic. Bob takes a deep breath, coaching himself quietly to take baby steps into the elevator, and as soon as the doors close, we hear Bob completely lose it, screaming at the top of his lungs as the elevator descends. Gotta love Bill Murray.

  Though that didn’t go well for Bob, the philosophy is a good one. My journey to a long and successful career in Hollywood was just a series of baby steps, the first one being changing my major in college. Ohio State is not known for its theater department, but that was what was available to me in the moment, so I took it—a baby step. That baby step also had a huge impact on my mental well-being. I was a long way from making my living as an actor, but the feeling of knowing I was doing what I loved, and what I believed I was supposed to be doing, helped alleviate some of my depression.

  At this point, I was ready to graduate from Ohio State. I did what I ha
d to in order to finish up a BA in theater on time. It consisted of taking a couple of acting classes, some theater history, costume design, play analysis, and being involved in a few productions. I got it done, but it didn’t prepare me at all for a career in the theater, or even for one of those Old West shows at Cedar Point amusement park. In this business, the smart way to go about building an acting career is to go to a reputable theater school. You graduate after having done lots of school productions, so when you’re out job hunting, you get a hand up from the schools’ alumni. If you come from Juilliard or Yale or Carnegie Mellon, there are a lot of successful alumni who will open a door for you. Plus, all of your classmates are up-and-coming writers and directors who know you and will cast you in their productions in New York. I didn’t have any of that at Ohio State.

  After I graduated, I really didn’t know what I was going to do. So I went back home and got a job as a waitress at a local Cleveland restaurant that had a slight whiff of the mob to it. I was the sorority girl wearing a Peter Pan collar and pearl necklace among hardened old gals with bouffant hairdos and blue eyeshadow. I couldn’t get a drink order straight to save my life. On my second day of work, my high school pal Kathy called me and said, “Hey! Let’s move to New York!” Without a second thought, I wrote a note and left it at the hostess desk for my boss, saying, “I quit—I’m going to New York.” And I never looked back. This wasn’t quite a baby step, but I knew it had to be my next step.

  Well, first I had to have one more big conversation with my dad. This one wouldn’t be as simple as the last one. I announced to him that I was moving to New York and he said, “Oh no, you’re gonna stay here and I’ll get you a better job.” In that moment it dawned on me that I didn’t need his permission anymore, and I gently replied, “I’m not asking you, Dad, I’m telling you.” He was a bit taken aback, but I remember I detected a slight smile on his face. And he said, “Well, in that case, I’ll give you eight hundred dollars. Good luck.” And with that, I was off to the Big Apple!